2019 was awful. Will 2020 be better?
One of my favorite moments in the world is having a window seat on an airplane. I get lost staring at the clouds, it is one of the most beautiful sights that life has to offer. Maybe its the experience of soaring through the heavens, maybe its because I wanted to be Peter Pan as a kid and thought flying would be awesome. What I do know is that the sea of the sky is endless. It is a vast ocean of freedom. From the sky, everything below looks so small and insignificant compared to the clouds, who float with no rush to be anywhere less than where the wind carries them.
I wish I could be like clouds, only moving at the same pace as the wind. The year 2019 is over, and hopefully, I can always look back and say that it was the worst year of my life. I want it—and every crappy thing that happened in 2019, to be as far away from me as the horizon of the skies ocean is when I stare out of my window while flying on a plane.
But I know I am not the only one who probably thinks that. In fact, I have yet to have a conversation with someone who said 2019 was a great year. Every person that I have talked to has gone on to explain how 2019 was an awful year. So if 2019 was not kind to you, then you can rest easy to know that you are in good company.
Psalm 23 has something to say about that
“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters… Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me…”Psalm 23 : 1 – 2, 4a (NIV)
For some of us, 2019 was a dark valley. For others of us, your valley is stretching into 2020 still. Only time will tell whether 2020 will still be a valley for me. But right now, I can have hope because the Bible says God is my shepherd who leads me through the valley and leads me to the quiet waters. He is the same for you.
Honestly, it’s been very hard for me to trust God, and I am still learning how to regain trust. Even though I will tell others He is trustworthy, after 2019 it has been hard to trust Him in my heart. But I continue to press forward, I choose to believe and I know that in my choice to believe, one day I will look back and understand.
The journey is not over, which is scary because that means there will be more valleys. But I will choose to push forward because I know one day all of this will be made right and I know that even though it may be hard to trust God right now in this season of collateral damage that my heart feels, I know He has not abandoned me. He has not abandoned you either. One day, we will be in green pastures and quiet waters together. Until that day arrives, hopefully, this little update from my life will help comfort you that you are not alone.
Surely your goodness and love will follow mePsalm 23:6 (NIV)
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord