I feel like your fifth month in a new location is the awkward place where you are no longer the new guy, but you are also not “one of us” yet. It is honestly a weird position to be in because it’s at this point I should probably stop using this sentence when I meet new people: “I recently moved here from Atlanta, Georgia!” Because in reality, I didn’t recently move to Iowa, I have been here for almost half a year now! Holy cow, time flies.
In my last monthly blog post update about my adventures in Iowa, I explained how I have been feeling a little “pressed for oil.” Like a rag being twisted so all of the excess water is removed, I feel like God is wringing out everything in me that is not good. So much of my comfort zone has been stretched, on a personal level. I have been filled with so many doubts, confusions, and more. Truly, I feel like there has been a never-ending battle going on in my mind.
Have you ever felt like that before? Like a war is being waged in your mind and it makes you truly exhausted? I can imagine you may have also felt this way, maybe it’s material things such as finances, debts, school, or work. Maybe it’s relationships such as friends, significant other, or parents. I think we all have had something which has weighed our minds down.
Jesus says, “Come to me all who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matt. 11:28)